Living Life On A $1.96

I have a long and wonderful day ahead of me. Let's just hope I don't fall asleep on the road because of this allergy medicine I'm taking. Get to see my Fauve, yay!

I'm now the official Society of Physics Students Secretary. Woohoo, I guess. Who would ever think I would be nominated for such a position, I mean I have no organizational skills, I can't remember shit, and I never follow through. Maybe it was because the only other person nominated was a 9 year old. Anyway I get to make posters and send out e-mails, and I get something to put on my resume. It's nice to be nominated. Something I can hold against Marek. When he says "So Courtney, I made a hundred on the homework. What'd you make?" I can say, "Well, i'm the SPS secretary."

O.k. o.k. so that's just sad, but the guy shoots me down a lot. He actually gave me a compliment today and I thought he wasn't because he never does. I asked him, "How you doing?" and I think he said, "Better now that I've seen you" and I said, "Yeah I guess I could make any day bad. Good thing you got that over with."

that's what happens when you act like an asshole all the time, people are just gonna assume you're always being an asshole.

Anyway it's a great day I finished my homework before friday morning for once. It's a glorious feeling.

This is one of the more beautiful things I saw yesterday

So, yeah, I like, I like went to my advisor today. She advised me, well more like just added more questions to my pot that is already brimming with questions. How am I ever going to figure this all out by April 15th?

I guess I need to do a lot of soul searching. The one thing that sounds the best is to postpone taking Modern Physics and take AGSC Intro To Agriculture or AGSC 212 Principles of Soil Science and see if that even interests me. THus I'd still be pursueing a physics minor even if I changed majors.

I have trouble making that complete jump from one to the other. This seems to fit better with my wanting to compromise. So this just leads to more stuff to do, more people to talk to, more searching.

I'm quite amazed at how gloomy it is outside, well not exactly with the gloominess, but the fact that I'm still happy even with the gloominess, and leaving my room key at the mechanic, so that I have to walk back and get it later, bummer. But all in all this freedom of having a tuesday off is exciting me to know end.

Walking back from the Golden Automotive, I noticed the beauty around me, and noted the eyesores, the cups and beer cans from a party last night, old rental signs, just numerous amounts of junk. I don't know if the beauty of spring makes up for it, or if I also see the eyesores as beautiful in there own right, but the world is sure beautiful.

I would like to know why is it when you try to do something a little different, make your own plan, people shoot you down, say that's not a plan, you aren't disciplined enough even if it was a plan, say that other people will look at it the same way. Damn people, with there speaking to fake people, conversations in the head of things that may or may not occur. What happened to living in the moment, beating to a different drummer, seeking out things unknown. What the fuck happened to it? It makes me want to cry

I changed the message board, the color was disturbing me, and I couldn't get it to link back to the site. So anyone who wants to post on a virgin board have at it. I think the changes will be liked