Friday, April 23, 2004
Part 4
Damn, I miss him!
So here it's been how many days since I chose this as part 4? I don't remember but it seems that the initial reason why I was missing Kyle has vanished from my memory. Maybe it was because he was drunk and I thought I should have been there to stop him, or maybe just because I have this enormous desire to be with the man that I've fallen for.
Either way the reason has left me, but the feeling is still there, and has been recharged based on a small yet momentous event that occured in the Redmond residence, (my roommates house, if you didn't know, she's a townie)
we were celebrating this guy mike's birthday, a friend of my roommates sister, anyways, a wierd bunch if you ask me--trekkies and the like. But, thats a digression. Right as mike was about to leave, in walked this girl. Mike was talking caring his cake already to go and then he turned around, and he saw her, and immediately his face brightened, he glowed. I mean this man turned completely into a new man. They embraced, he was just stunned, kissed, embrassed, spoke words that meant very little, except for "I love you." And it reminded me of how I see Kyle's face brighten up when I see him, how he seems like a new man everytime I do.
Everytime I see him i see this growth and almost a re re re something, I can't discribe. It made me want to come and surprise him so much i almost jumped in my car and sped toward Rolla, but the moment only lasted so long, and reason set in, and i stayed longing, waiting till I get to see him.
I know the wait will only making the meeting sweeter, but right now is hell.
Damn, I miss him!
So here it's been how many days since I chose this as part 4? I don't remember but it seems that the initial reason why I was missing Kyle has vanished from my memory. Maybe it was because he was drunk and I thought I should have been there to stop him, or maybe just because I have this enormous desire to be with the man that I've fallen for.
Either way the reason has left me, but the feeling is still there, and has been recharged based on a small yet momentous event that occured in the Redmond residence, (my roommates house, if you didn't know, she's a townie)
we were celebrating this guy mike's birthday, a friend of my roommates sister, anyways, a wierd bunch if you ask me--trekkies and the like. But, thats a digression. Right as mike was about to leave, in walked this girl. Mike was talking caring his cake already to go and then he turned around, and he saw her, and immediately his face brightened, he glowed. I mean this man turned completely into a new man. They embraced, he was just stunned, kissed, embrassed, spoke words that meant very little, except for "I love you." And it reminded me of how I see Kyle's face brighten up when I see him, how he seems like a new man everytime I do.
Everytime I see him i see this growth and almost a re re re something, I can't discribe. It made me want to come and surprise him so much i almost jumped in my car and sped toward Rolla, but the moment only lasted so long, and reason set in, and i stayed longing, waiting till I get to see him.
I know the wait will only making the meeting sweeter, but right now is hell.
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